I attended a K-12 chess tournament on Saturday in West Jordan. It went well; I scored second overall with four and a half points out of five. However, directly after the chess tournament, I actually felt really bad about the result; I was the top rated player in the tournament, and had been expected to beat everyone. In other words, I was not happy with a good result; it had to be the best. Later that afternoon, about two hours after the chess tournament, I came to the conclusion that this was an unhealthy mindset for me to be in, and that it had to stop.
Today, in sacrament meeting, a solution was made apparent to me; be thou humble. My mindset of having to win everything has been brought about by arrogance and pride. I must let go of my obsession with being the best, though I still believe it important to progress, and instead focus on playing good chess in general, and not worrying about the final result and beating myself up about it. Also, I have to keep in mind that all my victories come from the gifts and help God has given me, and accept losses as they come.
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